I need to make more changes. Seems as though I have done more modifying of self in my middle years than at any other time in my life.
I am so not into feeling betrayed by those I am attempting to help any longer. My union steward days are numbered. I was such a damn Polly Anna. It's nuts. Why on earth I thought I could make a difference in a segment of the world that is over-run with political maneuvering and back-stabbing, is beyond me. What the hell was I thinking?
So now, I begin to move on. I probably will lose some "friend ships", which makes me feel sad. But I will probably gain peacefulness and lose a major batch of life wrecking anxiety.
Like I've said for many moons, " I am a great supporter. I am not a great leader" nor do I want to be.
"I yam what I yam" as the great philosopher Popeye once said.
I read a lot. Books, magazines, Internet .... and I believe that I see a disturbing trend. People are becoming more and more judgmental.
In this enlightened / post hippy / everybody thinks they're so damn intellectual age -people are becoming more judgmental. of other people not less. I find this disconcerting to say the least.
And some of these people , if you accused them of being judgmental , they would vehemently deny it. but they are.
The hottest topics that I see this activity in are :
The trend is that if, say, I don't agree with your pursuit of spirituality or your political ideology, it isn't just a matter of " hey Dude, we really have different approaches here " ( smiley face , warm fuzzy feeling still intact )
Nope Daddy-o it becomes an "I'm right and you're wrong" match that occasionally will include name calling and almost always includes escalated voices.
I've seen some pretty sad results of said matches too.
This would be the place where I would normally interject that this is all part of the plan. The dream or the matrix if you will, that our friends in control and their henchmen (read folks at CNN and Fox News etc.) are attempting to weave to distract us from what may truly be important and what we truly may have control over.
But I'm not going to. Even though I think it's true.
Part of the reason I think this is such odd behavior is because I would think that any of these people would get the concept that you catch more flys with honey than vinegar. You know? It doesn't make sense to alienate someone whom you are supposedly wanting to move to your side. Do they think they're going to just "hate" the other guy into agreeing?
Or, even more annoying, this full of themselves 'I'm so intellectual ' types that adopt the patronizing attitude of , like , well what do you expect, he/she really isn't all that bright. Peee- yuke!
If I say anything about this stuff in real life, then I become the object of all the nauseating attitudes out there. Swish, all eyes turn towards me along with all the associated poison and ridicule. *sigh*
so I mostly don't say anything. I decided to tap this out here because I feel safe and hardly anyone besides me reads it anyway!